It's Interesting
It's interesting. Sometimes there's SOMETHING that I am anxious about, that my mind obsesses on and that wont go away. But then there are those times when there isn't anything for my anxiety to attach to - and in those times it attaches to THE FACT THAT THERE IS NOTHING. Why? Because the fact that there is nothing for me to be anxious about right now LEAVES SPACE for something terrifying to fill this nothingness and begin again the horror of being anxious. When there is nothing to attach to it attaches to the worry that something will come to my mind in the next few seconds that will make me so anxious that it will ruin the rest of my day. That I will then spend the rest of my day with my brain so clouded over that I can't think, trying to push through the clouds enough to make a path out of the storm but I can't. So interesting. That I feel anxious, whether there is a trigger today or not. ...